THANK YOU BANEY

I think I'm the luckiest girl (lipstick lesbian) in the world thanks to my girlfriend who's always there to support me and guide me to the right path. Baney you're my angel thanks for everything you've done to me I can't tell you how much I'm happy to have you in my life and no words can express how much I LOVE YOU.And don't you ever forget that :D

It's more fun in JECC.

I'm back in training with JECC. It was our first week. I was actually shocked cause the training is for 3 week now and we're almost like 40 people in training.

As usual I did make friends on the first day and the following days. We're all kinda close now and they're fun to be with. But the sad part is since we're too many we have like some kind of a elimination round. And that's sad cause you don't know if would be your last day today.

And because of that I have a new motto. Which is "LIVE TODAY AS IF IT'S YOU'RE LAST." Cause you might just be loosing one of the greatest opportunity in your life without even knowing it's already right in front of you.

FIRST DAY, FIRST NIGHT

So I wasn't able to post blogs right? But that didn't stop me from writing what the hell happened to me in those days. haha. Good thing BANEY (my girlfriend. Yes! My GIRLFRIEND! Got a problem with that dude? JK) gave me a 2012 journal now I'm using it as a notebook in my training and a diary at the same time. :D

Now, as much as I wanna post here whatever I wrote there but I'm a little too lazy to type them all one by one and it might get revised at the process so I'll just give you some kind of summary ok?

JUNE 18, 2012
The day I moved in to my dorm. Baney stayed for me for the night and I needed someone to wake me up early on my first day in training that's why she stayed with me. Wasn't able to sleep right away. and almost got late in training but we really didn't start that early. :D (If your thinking what happened. Why I wasn't able to sleep right away. Just keep thinking. RAWR! XD

JUNE 19, 2012
FIRST DAY in training. FIRST NIGHT alone. Training was fun kinda different than before but it was cool. I still do get the creeps from Sir Jay though. Now my first night was really creepy I had to wake up the drunk guard in my dorm and had to ride 2 jeepneys. But you guys don't have to worry about me that much I have a PEPPERMINT SPRAY. I just need your prayers to keep me safe. :D But I still wasn't able to sleep right away. Cause honestly it's my first time after a long time to sleep alone in a room. But I did sleep for 4 hours I guess. LOL

I MISSED YOU HUNNIES!!

It's been a week since my last post guys and a lot of weird and funny things happened to me. haha.
And I MISS YOU ALL hunnies. So sad I couldn't post/update my blog. :( Tried to do update using my tablet but I don't know there might be something wrong with it. haha. But no worries I'll still try to update you guys more often. But for now you might just be hearing from me once a week. So just keep on reading and waiting for fun updates . :*:*

I'm Gonna Miss You All

Sorry hunnies but I wouldn't be able to update you everyday starting tomorrow but I'll try my best to do so.

So just keep on reading and waiting for me..

THANKS. I LOVE YOU ALL ;)

wait. I have one more thing to thank you guys for.

I got 150 pageviews and all that happened because of you.

THANK YOU. THANK YOU. THANK YOU

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Delayed

Sorry guys wasn't able to update yesterday. :(

Now let's get back to business. haha

Delayed? What's delayed? My period is one and the other is my independence day.

Yeah, my monthly visit hasn't come yet guys but it doesn't mean I'm pregnant right? Right? Like that's not biologically, scientifically, geologically and even astronomically possible!! I don't have a boyfriend cause I HAVE A GIRLFRIEND!! Yes, guys I am. haha But I don't know my monthly visit comes regularly this is the first time it happened. WWAAAAHH !! Well enough about that it sounds kinda gross now haha.

Now about my independence day being moved. I'm suppose to move out today but it rained (again just like what happened the first time it got delayed) so I might be moving out tomorrow. All my things are ready, I'm ready so good luck for me. :D

Me? Going To The Gym? haha

What day is it today? Friday right? Well then 2 days to go before my official independence day. haha :D Feeling excited and scared at the same time. haha. Have I told you guys that the dorm I'm moving in has kinda like a in-house gym. Maybe it's a sign. Saying it's time for me to loose weight. haha I'm thinking about to so let's see. :D

FRIENDS :')

Dudes sorry if I haven't text-ed you recently. I'm still in some sort of funk and I still might be in a couple of weeks. But it doesn't mean I'm turning my back on you. I'm still here but trying to be invisible. I need this time for myself right now. But just stay there. I know where you guys are I'll be back. Hopefully you'll accept me. I love you guys and I miss you a lot. Friends forever ? :*

GOOD NEWS !!

GOOD NEWS guys !! I told you I was going to reapply and I'm in !! Yeay !! My training starts next week, Tuesday. :D And I told you we're going dorm-room haunting and we did find 1. Just Php 2,100 a month with aircon, water and  electricity included. See what you can get with a little effort. :D I'll be moving in on Sunday sooo..YEAY ME !! haha. Let's start a countdown to my first day of independence. haha Plus I'm planning to have a budget challenge ones my first pay starts. (I know I sound too assuming. haha) But let's see.

P.S. If your looking for an affordable bed space.  Feel free to ask me. Comment on this blog or message me here or on facebook. I asked around and I know a lot of great deals. haha ;) Or if you want I'll post a blog about it. Just request it here or anywhere. haha

WISH ME LUCK !!

I'm going to reapply today so WISH ME LUCK! haha .. plus we're also going dorm-room-haunting and if ever we find a place where I can move in immediately like today I might not be able to update you guys but I'll try my best to do so. ;)

Do I hate my mom?

Sorry for those people who love their mom so much. I know I sound bitter and a hypocrite but there's just women that are not totally meant to be mothers and one of them was mine. I hope I had realized that a long time ago. Way before thinking that I don't deserve to be loved. A mother should be the one that cares for you no matter what, and tells you how beautiful you are to her, that you're God's gift to her. But my mom isn't like that. Well she could be at times and I hope she could be like that a little more but I just couldn't take it anymore. All the harsh words and the psychological abuse that she's doing. I'm not posting/saying this for you guys to think wrong about my mom or your mom for instance. I'm just doing this for you to know how much a person could hurt you so much even though their suppose to be the one that loves when the world has turned their back on you.

Do I hate my mom? I can't really answer that question right now. But what I can say now is that  I forgive her for all of the things that she has done. And I pray for her to be better just like what I'm doing to myself right now.

THANKS GUYS

I can see people are finally reading my blog. I hope you guys would get inspired or whatever. But there's nothing else that I can say but thanks. And sorry if I don't post that much pictures or sounds or anything else. I'll try doing those stuff ones I get LAPPY(my laptop) back. But I'll keep on posting and updating you so stay with me. And let's get through this together. ;)

All my bags are packed and I'm ready to go.

Yes, dear friends. I am ready to go anytime. haha. But not totally, still got no money. lmfao. Hopefully we'll have some blessing for tomorrow. haha Plus I'm reapplying tomorrow. Yeay!

I remember the day I left home. I was carrying one backpack, a huge shoulder bag, a little pouch bag and a ginormous plastic box where I put all my dirty laundry. haha. And now it's all in one backpack and the huge box. haha. Can't believe that I can be that organized. Privacy is all I needed all these years just to keep myself organized. Maybe I was really meant to be alone to fix myself. :')

Update ;)

baney just talked to Lola earlier to update him about what's been happening, our plans, etc.
He said if I was going back to JECC I should just stay/go back home but we said NO, no yet at least. I'm not yet ready to face them. After what SHE'S done. Yes, I forgive her but she should know first why she's being forgiven. And I wanna show them that I can stand on my own feet before showing up to them. ;)

R.I.P Dr. Andres Gumban

https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?v=10150986431627069

This is the viral video posted in Facebook.

The murder of Dr. Andres Gumban.

I've been wanting to watch this for a long time. I thought that Facebook has completely blocked/erased it. But now here is it watch it if you haven't. But OMFG I don't what to say about the video but

TO ALL HOMO PHOBICS OUT THERE? IT'S ALRIGHT TO HATE US AS MUCH AS YOU LIKE BUT PLEASE JUST DON'T FORGET THAT WE'RE ALSO HUMAN BEINGS THAT DESERVES TO LIVE JUST LIKE YOU DO.

Anyway, karma's a BITCH and it'll sure get back on you.

Updates

So I told you guys yesterday that we're going to look for a dorm room today but the weather's kinda weird today. So we just moved all our plans a day later.

I'm suppose to re-apply with my old CC company this Wednesday but I decided to move it on Thursday so, I can be sure that my friends are there. Then at the same day we're gonna go dorm-room-haunting around Mendiola while I wait for the dates of my training. I know I might sound too amusing on getting my job back but they say it's much easier to get in if you were a former employee. So I'm keeping  my hopes up. ;)

So guys I still need your help, if you know any place I can rent in with the budget from 3000-4000 maybe around Mendiola or Santol or anywhere near. Please do comment on this post or email me or i.m me on my facebook.

Thanks guys !!

much love !!! SAI ;)

All By Myself. LOL

I'm feeling pretty normal right now. I think I'm suppose to be in a depressed/emotional state with what I'm going through but there's  nothing. I feel completely nothing. Not even the feeling of emptiness. I just totally feel blank. I feel as if I'm so hollow but I know I gotta pull myself together cause anytime now I gotta start living ones again. Yes I can feel sadness and happiness but not with myself. The bright side of me is gone. Not completely but she just seem to be resting. And now I think all I have to do is be alone and do what I love to do best be free and be loved by myself . ;)

updates 06.11.12

Ok, So, I just did my laundry. Thank God the washing machine's automatic so it took me less than an hour to finish all my laundry. :D And now I'm just waiting for it to dry off so I can put them back in my bags. haha. Then tomorrow we're planning to look for a dorm room around Mendiola cause we all know the cheapest ones are around there and hopefully we get to find 1 ASAP. So I can finally move and have sometime on my own. :D

So guys if you know any place near and cheap but safe and clean at the same time. Please do tell me so I can check it out and maybe get a great deal. Thanks <3

What's going on with me?

To all my close friends and people who know me,

You all know that what I'm going through is really tough. All of you even can't imagine how have I survived all this time without even leaving that hell of a home. haha. So now I'm saying it's confirmed I have left home, not because I'm angry but I because I want to better myself. I wanna learn how to be independent. Yes, of course I will still need all the help I can get to start this life but I have God with me so I know that I can make it. Anyway I'm in the right age, I know what's right from wrong. So you guys don't worry to much about me and just follow my blog. I'll update you on what's going on. ;) I love you all.

Pacquiao's Lost

Ok Ok. We all know this is the most trending topic there is right now so why not make it my first post.

I'm never into boxing and any other sports but I still have my opinion about the game and how people are reacting upon the results of Manny Pacquiao loosing and Bradley winning. We're all used to Manny being the winner and the superstar of the ring and being the people's champ but let's face it Bradley did put in ALOT of punches. haha But from the beginning of the game you can really see that it will end up with the judges decision unlike Manny's other fights where he won via knock out.

But let's move on from the game. I have nothing else to say cause I really know nothing about sports. haha

But I do wanna comment about Jessica Sanchez being an unProud Pinoy. (unProud? I don't know if there's such a word but you'll get it.haha) Well, I used to like her alot at the beginning of American Idol, but her being the superstar and being the best all the time kinda made me irritated. haha . But what makes me  hate her the most is not admitting she's a pure blooded Filipino. I heard Pacquiao offered her to sing the Philippine National Anthem for this game versus Bradley but she ended up refusing and singing for the other side. But good thing she kinda fvcked up some part of the Anthem so for sure it'll back fire on her. So good luck with that non-Filipino Jessica Sanchez.